Batroom light

The other night our bathroom light burned out. Our bathroom is about an eight foot by four foot room, maybe, with no windows in a basement. Therefore, it’s rather dark in there. My roommates and I felt very fortunate to find that there was a surplus of light bulbs in the up stairs hall closet. Feeling ambitious we dragged a chair into the tiny chamber and tried to pry off the peculiar light fixture. It took a troubling amount of effort. When we were finally able to open it up we found out, much to our dismay that we did not have the light bulbs necessary to light our bathroom. In the place of a normal 60 watt soft light bulb there were round florescent lights. Who uses round florescent lights?
There was only one thing to be done, head to the home depot. This is the first year I’ve been able to have a car at school, so I was eager to use the freedom that transportation gives, so I was eager to go out. Pulling the bizarre bulbs from their sockets my roommate and I went in search of those knowledgeable people in the orange vests. After some time we managed to get a hold of one who told us where and how to find the kind we needed.
I felt very odd that night; I felt the urge to wander. To go someplace, anyplace. It didn’t really matter where. We decided on ice burg to get milkshakes. After a while I realized that our other roommates probably needed to use the bathroom and we should probably bring light to the masses.
We returned home victorious, and with a little effort were able to get the light bulbs in place. We were triumphant.
A day or two later I was taking a shower and the lights went out. This of course perturbed me slightly. I do not enjoy being caught off guard like that. But, with the use of my emergency flashlight I was able to complete my shower. Later that night, the light started to work again. This happened various times throughout the week. Two or three days ago the light went out and hasn’t come back on.
So much for our triumphant return from the home depot.
Six girls share this small bathroom, and hygiene must go on. Our system of lighting started out with just using my flashlight and pointing it at the mirror. A little while later we added candles. No one has yet bothered to call our land lord. I don’t really know why. Basically, we’re still showering in the dark.
Tonight I had a very unfortunate experience. I thought about all of the things I wasn’t satisfied with. I saw some striking resemblances between my life and our dark bathroom. I am a senior this year and should be graduating in the spring. For the first time in four years, maybe more, I’ll really have to think about what I’m going to be doing with my life. As if that isn’t scary enough, I really have no idea what I really want to do. All this time I’ve been focusing on getting through school and it turns out that what I need to worry about is what comes next. I thought I needed one thing, and it turned out I needed another. The freedom I have gained being a college student is somewhat of an allusion, because I haven’t really faced responsibility. I’m still searching for what I really want. And in some ways I feel like I’m just adding enough happiness to my life to keep going without really fixing the problem. The problem is, I can’t really see where I’m going.
I’m not really sure where that leaves me, in life or in my story about myself. Call it a tragedy or an epiphany. I keep hoping my life is a comedy. All I know is this. Tonight I was fed up with showering by candle light so I took my desk lamp and put it on the back of the toilet. It brightened up the room considerably. I took matters into my own hands and was able to see a little more clearly. Still maybe it’s time I called an electrician. The future is up to me I guess. I just know that I’m not going to live my life being satisfied with “good enough”. I may have to evolve a little bit, but someday I’m going to be guided by the light in me.